Snow!!!

It snowed on my birthday! I couldn't believe it. The girls were so excited. It was Lily's first. Hannah was just saying the other day that it is never going to snow here again. Then, SURPRISE! They made a tiny snowman and put it in Meme's deep-freeze.

The New Year

Well, it's the new year. I wish I could be happy about it. I am thankful for all of my family. Without them we would probably be out on the street by now. I am hoping and praying that things get better soon. I am hoping and praying that something comes through for Tim soon. I am so sick and tired of everyone using him. He deserves something better. Hopefully that something will come quickly. It has been long enough! Something has to happen.

Today is my birthday and I have nothing better to do than to vent on this computer. What is left of my computer that is. My laptop screen broke before Christmas and I ordered a part for it but it did not work. So, I have taken the screen off of my laptop and hooked an old monitor up to my laptop. Now it is working somewhat like a desktop, I suppose.

I took all that I had today to not break down to tears. I still could be sobbing at the moment, but I am trying my best not to. It's not that everyone forgot my birthday or anything or that I didn't get what I wanted. Everyone is so kind and remembered, I so appreciate that I am loved. It's not even that Tim is so sick on my birthday. I think he has the flu or something. No it's not that at all. I just want to get out of the deep dark hole that we have fallen into. It's scary and dark and it seems endless. I can't see the light! I'm scared! All I can do is be happy that we are all still together for now and alive. My sweet, sweet girls! They are my lifeline.


Here's to a happier new year than it has been already.